:: something's missing ::

Most of the time I'm relatively content with my surroundings, apart from the fact that I never seem to have enough time for anyone including myself.

So where does all my time go to?
Monday Tuesday - uni and yoga class, Wednesday, Studying/Errands/House chores, Thursday - babysitting day/ work, friday saturday - Work, Sunday family day/ study.

So there goes all my time. I cant even go out at nite because I'll be too tired. That's pretty depressing.

Anyhow, I'm feeling rather peculiar today. Not sure if I'm depressed or if it's just PMS. It's that feeling that comes every now and then, when I have a moment of spare time to myself and lacking something to occupy myself. Or I may have something to do but not something I'm in the mood to do.
It's hard to describe. A simple feeling but can't exactly be put into words.
It's a feeling of emptiness, of a space, a void and I can't figure out what I need to fill it up. I know what it's not. Music enhances this emotion. It's... a feeling of belonging. Now I know I belong to a lot of places, groups of freinds, families and other categories. But, it is essentially something else. Just something missing...

I think it's a guy, but not him because I know that it can't be. I don't want it to be. Hmm.. I'm getting worried.

Oh well, I like to think it's all just pms so worry about it later. I ought to be studying so perhaps I should get cracking with that lol.